Random Thoughts, Random Tears

I was just listening to Paul Buchanan’s Mid Air and suddenly I fell into contemplation. Most of the things I heard right now about courtship and relationship is to always show the guy motive to let him do his first move. To be honest there were so many times I tried to make a move to let the guy I like to know what I felt, but I can’t bring myself to do it. I just can’t. One of the things I told myself after the last relationship I had, is to find a guy that would court me and pursue me, not just befriend me and make me fall inlove with him. I am a lady and I really believe that I am worth pursuing for. I’ve kept myself ready for that person and I think I am worth being courted with, to be treated special, to find that guy that would show me that I am special, the person that would be marrying me and had already married me a thousand times in his dreams. I know this would be difficult but I know he’ll be out there. God is preparing him. The randomness of my thoughts amuses me.

Cello Lessons

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I’ve not blogged for a long time haha It’s been super busy lately and even my time for breathing has been scarce(lol). Anyway I am adjusting pretty well with the school and my schoolmates, I’ve made enough friends in the music department and I can say that I am liking everyone of them. Upper years has been too sweet in tutoring me in my piano lessons, they would just enter the piano room and teach me. It was such a pleasure to be with them, sometimes we would gather in the music lobby and just sing songs.

Anyway I started my cello lesson last week and it was such an excitement! I love piano and cello together so if I’ll be able to play them both then that would be an awesomeness. The thing that I love about cello is it’s melancholic and deep sound, I kind of see myself in it.

I am also having this super crush with my classmate, he’s in the upper year but we have classes together, he’s my classmate in voice and chorus. He is playing the cello and he’s super cute when he does. I started to like him immensely lately because everytime I would practice my cello, he would be very delighted and he would sit and teach me. I don’t like him at first because i find him rude with my other classmates but he’s super gentle with me, he would be teaching me how to bow and encouraged me that it would be easier once I always practice. He’s such a delight to look at as well, perfect lips, eyes and nose, my gosh I sound like a teenager! hahahah Just last week, friday to be exact he saw me on one of the music room getting my cello ready and he entered the room, sweetly called my name and said “Very good, Cheryll”. He sat down and taught me how to hold the bow correctly, how to hold my notes. He also played along with me and showed me pieces that I would be playing soon once i advanced with my lessons, while he’s playing, he would be closing his eyes and i have all the time to look at him, I call it “Unlimited staring” hahahah We sat down for awhile to chat and he told me about his ex-girlfriend and he even asked me if I have a boyfriend already and one of the kids who entered carrying her violin teased him “Uy gaporma!! (Uy he’s making a move)” he laugh! hahaha

Enough with him, my youngest brother is now an Engineer! I went home this weekend and celebrated my other brother’s birthday and congratulated my youngest bro. I super love it. I am very happy. Thank you so much Lord!

Ciao :*

Great day

The day got awesomer as it draws to close.It started on a very good breakfast with friends, they cooked fried rice, bacon, longganisa and egg, it was good to start the morning with lively chitchat. After eating I went to school and joined the class late. Nice and I went back to my pad to eat lunch and practice for our practical test on our voice class. She accompanied and we sang the notes. We came in late on our voice class, they’ve started vocalizing but we catch up and after awhile the dreadful practical exam started. We all have one piece to sing, it was the Concone fifty lesson no. 1, well all my classmates wasn’t able to get their accompanist so they sang accapella, too many flunked on the notes, but mostly it was because they don’t have an accompanist and it was nerve-racking. I was called and by then I realized how great my Father is, I have a virtuoso pianist as my friend and Nice accompanied me, I was suppeeerrr nervous and I kept telling myself that I’ve been singing for almost 10 years as a vocalist and been singing since I was 2, but it didn’t minimize it. As I started my first note, I didn’t hit it immediately and started a little shaky but after passing 4 notes, I got my confidence back and started singing fine. IT was okay I think I miss 1 note but it was all fine. I will make sure to ace it on our midterm then. heheheh anyway I have the greatest backer in the face of the earth, He was the maker of everything that moves and doesn’t hahaha He really chose the greatest friends for me, even when on my first course up until now, I have the best friends ever! I thank God for my compound girls and Nice.

I worked, practiced piano and meditate with my tea the whole afternoon and went to IVBI for our prayer watch 9-12 midnight. Marilou went with us so we have the luxury of riding in a car and eating fries inside. The theme/prayer points will be longing and I was the one playing the guitar as it has always been if we have prayer watches. We started singing and when we got to the song “That is why” we started crying and I was really crying heavily, I felt soooo much longing for God to hug me, to just lay my head on His shoulder and be released from all the weariness of life. I cried as I was reminded that the reason why I went to school to study music is to experience more of that part of Him, to know more about the art that I am lifting up to Him, to make Him smile, I was reminded of His love and my love for Him and how much I miss Him and how much I long for that day when He comes again. It was really good and after the prayer watch Marilou shared her vision to the group. She saw Jesus embracing me, Jesus wiping Leilani’s tears and tap Jen’s back. I also saw some movement while worship and I felt His presence in all of us. I was really very happy that I am so much love by God, I am so much love. I don’t even deserved it but He embraced me anyway. I prayed that “Lord I just want to hear You say that You love me, I just want to feel Your embraced” and He did it. I am so amazed and will forever be with the One True King of kings and Lord of lord, my FRIEND and my GOD! :) SOooo happy.

Dreamer meeting her first obstacle

I’ve already started my first semester in music and it was really exciting. I got my confirmation from my Papa to study and so I pursued it. So my first day of class was so new to me that I got really terrified and realize right away that it was a long time since I was exposed to people wherein I need to interact with them and introduced myself as a first year student. Many of them were thinking that I was so young and they’re awfully mistaken hahah. Anyway it was terrifying, I went to my first class and nobody wanted to talk to me and well I don’t know how to approach them as well. I saw a friend from another band there and we exchanged a little conversation but not too friendly so I still felt like I don’t know anyone. I was really lost in the sea of faces and it was so frustrating. I even felt like my heart was about to explode on my second day because I felt like nobody wants to talk to me, even my classmates in music. So I just want to cry but that would be too dramatic, right?

On my 3rd day, that would be earlier, I made some improvement because one of my classmate in my voice class talk to me and began to asked me if I love K-pop, I was embarrassed by that so I told her that “no, it’s my hair” and many of my classmates and higher years were asking that question if I am a korean or calling me K-pop! it was so embarrassing. Many more humiliating moments there, like my teacher asking me why I enrolled as a piano major when I am still a grade zero piano player, eating candy after the vocalization and again my hair! My classmate are pretty cruel as well, because they laugh when my teacher told me about the hair and called me K-pop. Or maybe they don’t really mean to hurt or taunt me but it feels like it. I felt so inferior to them, but I remind myself that I’m here because of a dream and I know I’ll make it. I am not giving up! I will pursue it until I get to be a pro! I don’t know when but I will eventually, by God’s grace. :D

Reaching for my dream

imagesI’ve been working as an online employee for companies abroad for about 4 years now. I started to work right after graduation and it was a good one although I was going through a nasty break up that time. The job taught me a lot about how to work online and how to effectively communicate with different people outside my country. I don’t have any complaints about any of them because most of the companies I’ve work for are so professional and good to me; however, after years of working I got to the point where I wasn’t happy anymore. I know what my passion really is: Music. I wanted to play the piano, I wanted to create beautiful melodies so badly. I know what I was called to do: Singing for God and I want to do it with excellence. I don’t want to be stuck on what I already know, I wanted to explore the different dimension of this part of heaven; music is a part heaven, it connects people, it touches us, it stores memories and it gives meaning to things that seems meaningless. I am person who doesn’t take risk, I don’t have the required confidence to achieve something awesome;  I always thought that I am only average and greatness are reserved only for special people. However, there’s one thing that I fought really hard just to achieved it: worship leading, I cried too many times because I wanted to sing for God, many people hate my voice but God has a way to prune us and I was tested by fire just to achieved where I am right now, not yet perfect but getting there. So in connection, I wanted to compose songs and I need to play one instrument, I know how to play the guitar but I am not that good and besides my dream instrument is piano.  I dreamed that I went to a college on top of a hill and the school is run by nuns and the place was so beautiful. The second dream was I did go back to college as an english major. I didn’t paid much attention to it but I secretly desire it.

And just recently my mama messaged me asking if I wanted to go back to school and I was surprised because she told me that she’ll let me go back and she’s gonna pay for it. I was happy but I was very indecisive on what course to take up until I fell asleep thinking of declining my mom’s offer since I can’t decide and I’m not sure if I can actually carry on. I woke up and one word came to my mind immediately: MUSIC, I was really amused with myself that I haven’t thought about that. So I told my mama, she laughed at me for a moment because she thought that I won’t earn a lot with that after I graduate but I was persistent so she consented. This coming semester I will be enrolling in a college that offers music course, major in piano run by nuns! haha they have a good reputation with music and that’s great! Just by thinking about it I feel really excited, I smile often now haha My mama will buy me a piano and I am superduper excited about it. I know that along the way I will meet pressures, sadness, discouragement but I will read this post whenever I’ll feel any of those and will remind myself to keep pushing forward! This is my lifelong dream, the only thing I will be good at doing, I don’t have good fingers yet but I know that I have good ears, good emotions so I think that would be enough and also a lot of perseverance, so for now that would be sufficient, I hope! :)))

“Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second’s encounter with God and with eternity.”  - The Alchemist

Tagaytay

I felt so blessed that I was able to visit Tagaytay last summer for a seminar. The place is wonderful, food was great and music was so heavenly. It was like a vacation for all of us because we were able to rest from all the work and enjoy the presence of God.  It was a seminar for intercessors, pastors and musicians (worship leaders). Jill Shannon, Robert Misst are the speakers and the sessions are really powerful. 24/7 IHOP system are introduced by Jill and I was crying like a baby, I was only dreaming that 24/7 houses of prayer will be established in our city last year, I never thought that it will come to pass this year. The Lord’s faithfulness and goodness never ceases to amaze me.

Pictures:

Sunrise – We need to wake up at 5am for our morning prayer and it was so cold.

The view from the window

The whole place

Picnic grove

Excited to visit picnic grove and get a glimpse of  Taal Volcano for the first time.

Such a blissful experience indeed!

Much Love,

Cheryll :)

Flight to Manila

It has been a super busy summer for me this year and there’s a sense of urgency in everything. We’re trying to put up 24/7 houses of prayer in our city and different churches are trained for the work. However in the midst of all this preparation, God surely gives wonderful moments to remember. I was able to fly to Manila for a 2 week training for intercession and worship, it was a wonderful and heavenly experience. A man of God which is used in the area of business sponsored everything from accommodation to almost every expenses used on the training so I felt super blessed!

Here are the pictures taken during our flight to Manila.

We ‘re  all excited!

A glimpse of heaven. I was like a little child trying to capture everything.

Bus Ride going to NAIA… :)

NAIA  arrival.

Love it!

Cheryll :D